I have this sudden urge to strip naked, go and stand outside. Not care about who sees me in all my nudity. I want to do that. I want to live a life without anything to hide. I visualized I am with him, on top of him, and enjoying the touch of his hand on my naked body. I am running towards him to hug him, and he is unaware of my thoughts. I get up with stiffness. I think of calling him and telling him this is what I want to do with him. This is what I did with him once. This is what he told me he has not thought about it since that day. I miss my yesterday…